Augh! It’s frikkin’ New Post Tuesday already and I haven’t got a flippin’ clue what to write about!
FAIL
Umm… Iron Man was awesome!… ? No, not good enough. What the heck, during the week, I’ve had a million things run through my mind. Now they are all gone. WTF?
Well, I haven’t been writing nearly enough. My book sits untouched since last week. I need to find a way to not only stay motivated, but to keep it in the front of my mind. My life is very “out of sight, out of mind”. If it’s not right in front of me, I’ll forget it. NO MATTER HOW IMPORTANT IT IS!
In the meantime, I can recall lines, actors, plot points, and discrepencies in a movie I saw 12 years ago. I hate my frikkin’ memory.
Well, on to news:
- Back to the doctor last week. ALT and AST (liver toxins) are mildly elevated. Joy. Back to another year long treatment of Prednisone and Imuran. Mix in weekly blood tests for a while then just monthly. Liver disease, liver disease, go away. Liver disease me some other day.
- Daily workout at the gym. NOT. Still can’t get the gumption up to go. I don’t get it. I’ve gone before, I feel better (other than my damn feet), but I can’t seem to shake the fact that “I don’t feel like going to the gym”. What the f*ck? Why do I have no control over myself. That brings me to…
- Weight – 330lbs. Too much. Must lose weight. While I am all for “fat acceptance” or more appropriately, proper self-image, 330 is too much for me. I am uncomfortable in my own skin. For reference I am 5′10″ tall.
- Every day I make a mental list of all the ways I’ve failed in life. (Idea! I need to blog about all the ways I’ve succeeded in life!)
I don’t know what else to say.
